…And I am surfing the web thinking. Yes occasionally I think! Actually the truth is I had to shut down my brain for a bit on the completion of the feature version of “Drawn by Pain”. I was a tad on the burnt out side of things.
With all that chaos that come with making something you are passionate about – sometimes you can push so hard that when you finally finish pushing – you forget why you started the push in the first place. That’s when it’s time to step away and decompress if even for a few weeks.
I find myself asking what has been achieved so far? Where do I stand? 3 weeks ago I might have shrugged and said I have no idea if anything has moved. But that feeling passes with a few weeks of sleep. I must say I am feeling proud of what I have been able to do with very little. I am proud that I didn’t let all the outside and sometimes inside voices tell me it couldn’t be done. I’m proud that I am ready to take this work and take the risk of sharing it in it’s true form.
I do hope people take the time. I do hope that people understand what I was trying to say in the way that I said it. I do hope I can have the resources to make a life out of doing this,
I really can’t thank all those that have stayed with me along the way. I even feel grateful to those that have fallen away for I miss their friendship on many days.
Things are looking up. I have a good feelings about the coming days. I think with all the hard work – only good things can happen.
Miss you guys much,
Jes
